Tuesday, March 26, 2019

Clarity

It's about being clear dude! You ought to have some clarity and blah blah blah!

Am I blabbering again? and about what?

You and I could go on and on and on on this endless prattle; this "shall be your destiny" changes to "this is what you are destined to be"to "donno what the destiny wants"

Clarity! Yes! clarity! is something that ironically isn’t clear. You rise and shine and then rinse and shy away (If that makes any sense and if it does we shall have a separate blog on this one). Why? if you are not clear, you will be laughed at incessantly and by whom? By a moron for whom clarity is not what it looks like.

So what does it actually look like? Does it even exist?

Let’s chuck the moron out of picture and be the moron ourselves. Can we see the right thing, something that’s not concealed? Do we ever get to get to the point, point which is “done and dusted” and which does not need to be worked upon? Can we get over those intricacies that make our stomachs gurgle, sting and at times burn?

I have had enough beating around the bush because by the time I will figure my way out, I would still have to start with ground zero and then guess what? I would yet again be laughed at and frankly speaking I am not in a mood to head that way...at least not today (may be some other day😊)

Sunday, March 24, 2019

Straightening thy stance

If you can’t put down anything sensible, let your senses do their thing and then at least put something down. It’s like getting in the groove, trying to warm those frozen tidbits that one tantalized you, that once made you move, immaterial of whether you were wrong or right, lose or tight (whatever that means). Chuck the format, walk your way because you know that there are some out there who will have a gait that the world drools over, you, my friend, are probably just trying to doodle your steps on an unknown floor like a toddler and a toddler's inception is never judged, it’s rather applauded. 

Sunday, May 13, 2018

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY

Every single day belongs to you and every single day is incomplete without you


I’m incomplete without you . . . . . .  


It’s not just this day that I choose to admire you, for me every single day and every single moment is about loving you like mad knowingly or unknowingly.


For me every single moment is about looking around for you even for the smallest breath I take even though I might not just say it every now and then.


Believe me, however much you might take care of me, I’ll still yearn for your care even more because that’s exactly where I feel warm and safe, it’s as if that’s the elixir that keeps me alive.


If it’s about being grateful to you for all that you have done for me, believe I shall be doing that till the sands of time vanish away and even beyond.


If it’s about celebrating the fact that you are my mom, believe me, I have been doing that ever since I was born.  

PS: I love you mum and happy mother's day 😘

Sunday, April 29, 2018

Should I speak my mind?


Should I speak my mind?



Should I speak my mind?


I speak when I speak; I speak sometimes about the unspoken. The question is when do I speak? I don’t know when but when I do, I have this uncanny ability to speak at length. Yeah! People find it unsettling when I speak so to speak. I know though I am not so sure if I am making sense but hey! I deserve the right to speak just like any other existing soul. For if I am stopped, for if I am warned, for if I am jolted and told not to at every instance, isn’t that unfair but yeah! who am I to say that. From what I perceive from the receiving end, I seem to have snatched what I believe has been snatched from me. I intend to stay good and after all, that’s exactly what counts to stay in the good books, of whom? I don’t know. What I know for the fact is that I  just can’t seem to fall down in my own eyes, I love my senses, I love what seems at times impertinent and senseless to others. I don’t mind saying sorry if you will, if that suffices your ‘ego’, if that puts in a delusionally high state of life. God bless you! 

#speakyourmind

Saturday, April 7, 2018

THE SWORD

The moment I squeezed my eyes, I sensed you. Yes! You were very much there. You probably were chained behind the translucence of my imagination where I could feel your sharpness. Unless you came absolutely close and sat behind my closed eyelids. Penetrating them, you sat on the nib of my pen and you didn’t surface until I scribbled you down a several hundred times and then I won you over and your sheen shone through my smile.


Monday, April 2, 2018

Cauldron


Cauldron, a utensil that takes you out of your urban kitchen, keeps your other puny little urban utensils at the bay and brings you amidst in the open. Its vibe is not what you get out of a normal kitchen or its utensils. 

Cooking in a cauldron was not just another inadvertent mundane chore. Whether you talk about the earthly realm or another, cauldrons have concocted elixirs, potions, magical tonics and possibly godly ambrosia in the not so distant past. 

It wasn’t just a normal utensil, isn’t it? It had this uncanny ability of ‘summoning up’. It was so captivatingly dominating that anything that is stirred inside it, anything for that matter, eventually delivered brilliance, both in terms of taste and power. It was this taste of so many ingredients where each ingredient had its own character, its personality and its own taste. 

In this contemporary era ‘cauldron’ seems to be losing its identity. In the not so distant past, whether evil or good, its motive was pure. Now, it’s no more a reservoir and even if it is, it’s a reservoir of sorts that summons up or at least tries to summon up, that tries to squeeze and bring about the best that each of these ingredients has. The final taste lies in the hands of the stirrer, not someone who would stir these ingredients to their best but someone who can possibly manipulate these ingredients, no matter if the ingredients want to be cooked or not.

Sunday, March 11, 2018

HEIRLOOM

It had been a long time since Jaidev had left writing. Back in the day, Jaidev was a magician with words. He would gather emotions from within and without, stir them in the vessel of his heart, making sure that even his mind followed. That was his intense love for words. Sometimes, he loved them like a lover, at other times like a friend, and on certain instances, even like a parent. He loved them, completely.

Jaidev would take situations, instances, conversations or anything for that matter and with the dexterity of a weaver, arrange them into a coherent narrative. He would then narrate everything to Parke', his fountain pen. The slenderness of the body and the shine and sharpness of the nib titillated the deep-rooted writer in him. He would never need a reason to write, his only impetus, words, and of course, his trusted Parke’. He and Parke’ had developed genuine camaraderie, a bond, eternal. Parke’ would stay with him in his pocket, the next best thing to being in his heart, and travelled with him everywhere he went. Once, when Jaidev was going to meet his lady-love for the first time, his heart skipped a beat and Parke’ promptly remarked, like a seasoned doctor, “dude, you need to take it easy”.


Such was Jaidev’s admiration for Parke’, that he wouldn’t let him write on just any old paper. Even the sheets Parke’ would write on, were perfect. What he and Parke’ wrote on, was a blank white paper that was crisp, whose edges were neat and sharp and not a single crease could be found. Parke’ reciprocated his friend’s efforts and every time Jaidev swirled, his nib swirled in alliance and etched the most beautiful handwriting.
He had a developed an uncanny habit of brushing his hands gently through each word and line, however big they were. He would smile and cry whenever he went past a particular word or line, that portrayed a particular emotion and what he narrated next to his listeners formed a masterpiece, a beautiful story indeed. His stories were grasping and his tone in unison made his stories sound as if things were happening in front of a person’s eyes. He had even become the star of every gathering or event, no matter the occasion, big or small.


The ‘writing’ thing for him was so personal that he couldn’t care less for peoples’ opinions. However, even before he would present his writing in front of others, he made sure that he was being listened to, attentively, such was his presence. He would sometimes share a little build up before a performance, teasing them with the most delicate starter, creating a furor amongst the audience.


As he got older and as he fell in love, his work gained depth. And it was something that reached his beloved. He pampered his beloved with the caressingly silken touch of his ballads.
Alas, as he aged and raised a family, the words found it hard to emerge from his mind and through his revered pen, that now shivered in his arthritic hands. The situation came to such a pass that he was forced to put down his pen!


This would have been his return to the ring of words. For a moment, they challenged him and he thought that he would have to have a dual with them…..
Now, in the present, today, the white paper that he aimed to pour his words onto was just as white, as blank as his mind.  It had become intensely tough, situations were stinging as if each poked a zillion of venomous needles in his body. Hell, there was a lot that he wanted to pour out, just so that he could cleanse himself of the filth that he had carried within for almost a decade and a half.

Parke’ lay aloof and dejected next to him on his table. The pain was excruciating but he did not give up. He turned slowly but steadily, every bone crackling. The harder he tried, the bigger the jolt of pain.  How he wished he had the swiftness of his heydays, the exuberance of his lost youth. Days when he’d jump and pick Parke’ and roll park through every finger back and forth. Just as he wished he’d get it back, a 20 something-year-old lad appeared out of nowhere. He took his pen, gave it a nice look and rolled it effortlessly in his fingers back and forth. Not just that, he even twirled it from side to side.

Jaidev knew he had a successor. In a bleak voice, he said “don’t let it fall Jayant”
“Don’t you worry grandpa; it’s in my safe hands”
“There were few lines that I had written”
“Go ahead son, I’m all ears”
“here you go…” Jayant took a neat blank page out from a folder.
Until the words rise and shine
Where they come from, you shall not know
Writhing with restlessness in silence
They just wish to have a go
I indeed penned ‘em down with all my might,
Carefully putting what they felt
They travelled from a page to you
And hell did they make your heart melt.

Jaidev narrowed his eyes and emitted a smile,  gestured to Jayant to hand him the paper. The poem was handwritten beautifully. Moreover, the page was crisp, white and did not have a single crease. He reiterated that long lost process of brushing his fingers through the page, through every line.
Jaidev was taken to the time when he was Jayant's age and had written similar words. Still looking at the page like a scroll, he asked “whose heart did you melt?”
 “Granny’s I guess” Jayant candidly replied as if trying to dodge the question
“Did you?”               
“She said nice try! But your grandpa did that long back”
“Oh yeah! Of course” said grandpa raising his head in pride
“But she said, she loved me more” Jayant giggled.
“Naughty boy, I don’t mind”
Jayant hugged his grandpa and said “she’ll be here this evening”

PS: Thanks Kartik Sir for helping my story get a better form and helping me sharpen my story writing. I indeed got to learn a lot from you at TOSS.

Thursday, January 4, 2018

ये शब्द क्या कुछ नहीं कर जाते हैं।

ये शब्द क्या कुछ नहीं कर जाते हैं।
ये शब्द क्या कुछ नहीं कर जाते हैं। 


कानों से सनसनाते हुए,
कहीं हवा में  निकल जातें हैं,
ये शब्द क्या कुछ नहीं कर जाते हैं। 

कानो से ज़हन तक और ज़हन से 
शरीर मैं उतर जाते हैं, 
ये शब्द क्या कुछ नहीं कर जाते हैं। 

एक जुबां से दूसरी जुबां तक़
चंद लम्हों का सफर तय कर जाते हैं ,
ये शब्द क्या कुछ नहीं कर जाते हैं। 

सोच की उपज और  फिर सोच से ही परे, 
कुछ अनोखा सा एहसास करा जाते हैं ,
ये शब्द क्या कुछ नहीं कर जाते हैं। 

खेलो तो खिलौना, दिल पर लो, 
तो आदमी को खिलौना बना जाते हैं, 
ये शब्द क्या कुछ नहीं कर जाते हैं। 

कुछ का इजाज़त से आगाज़ होता है, 
कुछ बिना इजाज़त के,नादानी से ही बिखर जाते हैं, 
ये शब्द क्या कुछ नहीं कर जाते हैं। 

खैर शब्दों को ठैराव उनको बाँधने जैसा है, 
प्यार से पुचकारो तो काबू मैं भी आ जाते हैं, 
ये प्यारे शब्द हैं जो न जाने क्या कुछ नहीं कर जाते हैं। 

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

An Alien In A Human Case

An Alien In A Human Case
An Alien In A Human Case

I don’t know what I was born as, but as it turns out and as this case perceives an outer body, I'd like to say that I was born an alien but don't know how I landed in a human case. Yes, as long as I know this isn't my body. The way in which this case moved around was almost equivalent to how I walked. It talked as I did. My inherent abilities like making and demolishing universes, consuming and giving energy got suppressed and I realized what it is like to be a human and what it was like when I decided the fate of other creatures of the varied universes, I learnt their lives and started to forget mine. It once so happened that a creature called power came to me, it pleaded me to give it its mere existence.

I did not know what it actually was, or what it actually was capable of doing. With some instinct and introspect, I nodded in a yes. It said and I quote “For you it is your character, for them it will be something that they'll imbibe". I found profundity in what it said. It added and looked straight in my eye. The moment its eyes met mine, I frowned but my frown was so feeble. It was as if I had no other option but to agree and submit. Wait? submission, agreeing, giving in...I'd never heard of these terms. There was a magic in those words and they were intoxicating.

What intrigues me even more is this case in which I got stuck. How did this happen and moreover what was this case all about? People are like, so different to this case, they talk to him yet ignore him. They abuse him, yet when he is not sane, they console him. He is always bereft of inner peace, no matter what peaceful lessons he is taught. It seems to be thirsty for power and prowess. I do sense its being nurtured but despite getting enough nourishment he lacks behind. He seems to have inherited all the virtues that people/cases of its planet boast of. Its brutally honest, not for once can he lie and it can't hurt anyone.

Today, I found out that this case had taught me to lie but unlike other liars he wasn’t very good at it, he was gaining wit but I guess that I came out of me, somewhere down the line I wanted it to rebel and lie and become diplomatic, it was on the verge of something, good or bad, dont know? I feel as if I am becoming one with him and I certainly and earnestly want to keep myself away from that. It has started to make me question my own identity though.


I guess I am one with it now. Wait! Hey! It seems I was asleep and I was probably dreaming. With bright sunshine splashed on my face, I am all set to start my day. I know I am going to have to face millions of ups and downs but it’s all that I am born to face and do away with. I know I have the "power" and the "prowess" and I am one with my soul, a soul that stretched its ass beyond this universe. I am a human trapped in an alien case.

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Mindrilla

MINDRILLA


Within the place "Human" stood "Mindrilla"
Human mind depicted as a destination in itself


Once there stood a place called “HUMAN”. Within this place lied a hazy-mazy destination of “MINDRILLA”. None of its residents could decipher the end of this labyrinth. It was formed of zillion twists and turns. Some turns were easy to decipher. One could crack them within seconds, whereas there were some turns that took people an eternity to even get a feel of what they were about and god-forbid if someone lost himself or herself in one of those turns, they literally had to find a way out of hell. Rugged paths mingled with pitch black darkness and topped with unnerving outer sounds, these dreaded paths, the unknown tracks were the ones that not even the most courageous traveler would dare to take.  The inhabitants, therefore, considered it better, not to start off on an unknown track.

Outside the walls of this maze, one could listen to a variety of buzzing sounds. Some presumed the sounds were sweet and soothing whereas others presumed that the sounds were jarring and scary. The sounds prevented the residents to even think of getting out, leave aside finding a way out. So, what prevented them to stay inside and in a way suffocate was the mere feel of this place. It made them calculate, decide, analyze and everything that would keep them out of danger but there was no thrill, no fun that would have made them happy.

 Happiness was something that the inhabitants had heard of but had no idea of what this thing actually was. So, it so happened that one day that one of the residents dared to explore the very end. So, He walked and walked past all the nooks and crannies and the passages that spanned miles.  Even if he reached a dead end, he took a turn hoping that it’ll take it to the ultimate end. The mere process of exploring the way out exhausted him and at one point in time, he was breathless. He immediately wanted to hold back, the very thought of getting out yet, at the back of his mind he was sure that reaching the end would be blissfully satisfying. At that penultimate end, he knew he would attain the freedom that he so desperately needed. Yes! Freedom, this was what he exactly yearned for, even he had to run out of breathing.

Parched Crow


A Ravenish Crow or a Crowish Raven stood gracefully on a twig, against a wall. The faster he quenches his 'parched' soul, the sooner and the farther, the grace will his flight attain. 

Thursday, November 9, 2017

शुक्र है उस फ़िक्र का

शुक्र है उस फ़िक्र का
जिस फ़िक्र का कोई ज़िक्र नहीं
इल्म है उस जिस्म का
जिस जिस्म मैं कोई इल्म नहीं

ना झुके ये नक्श !
ये नक्श का ही लक्ष्य है
अक्स वो जो  था नहीं
जो था किसीका अक्स है

काटते ये पल मुझे
मुझसे बगावत करते हैं
कहतें है क्यों झुकता नहीं तू?
मुझे काटने को तरसते हैं ये

जो मुझे ज़ंजीर से जकड़ ले
सर उसका ही है
जो जकड पाया नहीं
तो उसे चीरना भी मुझे है

बंद मुट्ठी की ज़ुबां
मुक्का बयाँ कर जाएगा
मुक्का जो खुल थप्पड़ बना तो
गाल  पर छप जाएगा

छाप देके गाल पर
वह खौफ भी  जाएगा
तू सिर्फ आगाज़ कर
तुझे.....तेरा काल नज़र ही आएगा


Friday, November 3, 2017

SOMETIMES THE WORDS ARE NOT MINE

SOMETIMES THE WORDS ARE NOT MINE


Sometimes the words are not mine

I just let them be and let them shine

I let them fly as high as they can

For I want them to take a decent charming flight

Unless they get stuck onto some grind

I ask them to back off for I fear they’ll lose the fight



Sometimes the words when the words are mine

They come by as they are as much as they shine

I try and keep them low just so they can sooth

But they scathe inadvertently, incorrigibly

I, then get stuck onto some apology

Sometimes I come clean, sometimes I fail horribly



For the least to speak,

Taking a stand and a stance on my words so meek

I free them as much I possibly can

I let them reach their destined object, human or inhuman

If they ask for a little too much

I’ll hold them tight if they get out of hand

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Hold The Destiny Like A Glass Of Wine

We cast a spell and wish our lives to be ours.. not knowing the fact that we are being played upon.

Pale and bright, dark and light, our lives however colourful, emit slight patches of monotone..

Ponder on the glass of wine, sip it slightly and swirl it nicely..

A Smoker's Soul Speaks



Smokin a puff, it was all hunky dory until I got light headed.

Slowly and steadily I aced this ecstatic stuff and lost the sight and smell of several ecstacies.

THIS IS HOW I FEEL NOW....

Half-Beauty


The tip of my pencil stopped halfway,

for it admired the partial you,

It shined as if it smiled,

brimming with joy it said " I'm so glad that I sketched you"

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

“A THOUGHTLESS” THOUGHT


“What started off, as absolutely nothing is going to end with something, something that might sound boggling but whatever it is, it sounds absolutely wonderful.” – Anonymous me 😀😊   I’ve tried to keep it as short and simple as I possibly can.. Here we go :
        
Let that one fly,
Fly as high as it possibly can,
It came to my mind, kissed my heart and
Flew past my soul

A curry ‘so tasty’ to my tongue
And my mind felt it to be tasteless,
I greedily devoured upon it,
Unabashed and totally totally shameless.

I don’t even mind flaunting it out
I’ll confidently and as effortlessly let it sprout
Thinking about giving my thought a ‘form’,

I don’t want this “thoughtless form” to ruin “its formless form”.

Thursday, February 2, 2017

Unearthed Tale - 2

It all starts with just a normal sit down. A gush of thoughts make him burst out so much so that all the energy that is left in him has gone and all he can do is lean back against a wall, take a sigh… but as his mind relaxes and as he relaxes, there is a whole lot of things that he travels through. On and off, he is woken up, taken to the real world, by whom? He doesn’t know. Time and again, he relaxes, goes back into a sigh of relief and then again he starts of on a new travel, he doesn’t know where he is or whom he is with.

Is he a puppet in the hands of some entities, is he a puppet in the hands of objects he is with. There is a time when he completely transcends the difference between his own real life, his own real self and the virtual life he has been travelling. Sometimes the puppeteer/commanding voices are from the outside and sometimes they arise from deep within him.


He narrates his ongoing experience to people around, mainly to the people he know. It is indeed complex, in worldly terms, it is insane, foolish, unrealistic, etc, etc, blah blah blah.. They shoo him away, even if not on the face. All this makes him more insane. Is this a battle that he’s supposed to fight alone or is he a lone character in a not so goody-fairy-dreamy tale?? Whatever it is, it’s an experience that he will have to feel both from his heart and mind…

Saturday, January 28, 2017

Maggied !!!

Dumped into a boiling pool, they sizzled and tempted the hell out of my hunger. They swirled and twirled as I moved my fork over them. And I waited for the curly-swirly noodles to fall down my throat. I was Maggied at first, more than I was hungry or enchanted or whatever.
No! It wasn’t that early, they had to be cooked, had to be jiggled, had to be tossed and turned before I could slurp the first yummy noodle down my throat to my tummy but as I balanced them and steered clear through my entangled supper, I felt pity for them, possibly because they were shining in their yellow cover and looked absolutely adorable.  They felt smooth and soft at the same time.
Connected to the core, and attached to each one of them, I did have to decide. Then my hunger and I made a call, GO FOR THE KILL! Gulp them down, but, go bite by bite. I did find a midway. I didn’t go fast and didn’t go slow either. For the first bite, I held up my platter slightly high, gave them a good look, I twirled few of them, wrapped them on my fork and Ah! Heavenly it was!! 

Completely noodlized..
So, I took my first bite into my hot spicy fest. It was a mix of connect with the noodles and an unemotional desire to eat them all. There was no stopping then. I went slowly at first but as soon as my hunger and my greed to eat them all, took the best of me, it was then when I hurryingly stabbed every other noodle like a brutal carnivore and in few minutes, they were all down my tummy.. and burp!!!! ..was the last thing I did.. To put it all, a Maggied me devoured every noodle that came between me and my hunger. 

Sunday, January 8, 2017

THE MONOTONOUS "HIM"

He sat on a bench at a park and felt the presence of countless people around. People walked by, shoulders brushed his, he moved his head side to side to figure out if there was somebody, but the movement was so goddamn fast that he could not make out who it was and where they came from. People moved in silhouettes and in all gradation of monotone colors, people moved in blurred shadows, they intrigued him, their movement intrigued him and then he fluttered, he tried really hard to at least catch a person, and one by one each of his prospective prey got out of his hands.

He then caught hold of one of the figures. It was lighter than cotton or foam but it was for sure, heavier than the wind and before he could decipher who that person was, he heard a voice, voice that wanted to say something to him, he moved his head in the direction of voice that had startled him, but then he was even more worried that his catch would leave him, so immediately turned back, after all, after all that being intrigued, he had caught hold of his only prey and thankfully the prey was happily in.

A little relieved this time, he tried again to move in the direction of the voice when he suddenly felt someone tapping his shoulders, he was yet again startled and the tapping came from the figure that he had just caught. The figure advanced towards him as if it wanted to say something to him. Just as he blinked, he found that it was not just the sitting figure that advanced towards him but everyone present at the park that advanced towards him, he was obviously elated, after all, his intrigue was getting answered; he was going to get the attention that he required.  He tried his best to understand what the figures were trying to convey or telling him, a few figures even tried to touch him but they could not. It felt as if he was lighter than the wind, it was as if he was a ghost who was impossible to touch. For the figures, he came across as a blurry shadowy silhouette….

Clarity

It's about being clear dude! You ought to have some clarity and blah blah blah! Am I blabbering again? and about what? You and I co...